Farewell to September/ 31 Days Intro
I did not get a chance to say goodbye to September, so I will take the first day of October to do this. I wanted to participate in the #31Days challenge, but I admit I am frail and prone to distraction and fatigue. It may or may not happen. If it happens, and I hope it will continue, then my focus will be on staying present. Present to my surroundings, present to the cries of my heart, present to the needs of my body. I will try not to run from, drown out, or otherwise squelch the person I am and wish to be. No matter how hard. I will practice stability, by saying yes to the right-now of my life.
For me, September was a significant month because it marked the death of a dream. I spent many days in grief, prayers, and seeking answers. Not many were found, but in the process I found solace in daily praying the hours and spending the mornings in devotional posture. Forward movement cannot be forced, but it can be cultivated. And that is what I am hoping for in October.
Today, I want to share with you a poem that I wrote as a farewell to this dream because it deserves a proper wake. This is my marker, and from this day I will move forward. Slowly, but surely, God help me.
Farewell
To dreams not for me,
Though for a time
I thought they aligned.
Now I see
The light become dark,
A dream snatched away,
Vanishing day.
I feel the loss.
I reach for all
That was already mine,
But the way forward
Is slow going now,
For I am wandering
Without a light in my eyes.
Will you stay
And wait with me
In my pain-
No words to say
No earthly thing to gain-
And show another soul
What it means to matter
Just because I’m alive?
Wishing you peace and hope and a way forward this October.
Love,
Jamie
31 Days of Stability, Day 2: The Truth About Stability
31 Days of Stability, Day 3: Stability And Faith Crises
31 Days of Stability, Day 4: To Unfamiliar Angles
31 Days of Stability, Day 6: Today
31 Days of Stability, Day 8: Stability And Interruptions
31 Days of Stability, Day 9: Stability Of Commitment
31 Days of Stability, poetry prompt: Saying Yes
31 Days of Stability, Day 10: Stability And Dreams
31 Days of Stability, Day 11: Hungry
31 Days of Stability, Day 12: Stability And Making Space
31 Days of Stability, Day 13: Still A Little Shaky
31 Days of Stability, Day 14: Stability And Meditation
31 Days of Stability, Day 15: I Wait
31 Days of Stability, Day 16: Present to the Season: Autumn
31 Days of Stability, Day 17: What To Do At Week's End
31 Days of Stability, Day 18: Be At Rest
31 Days of Stability, Day 19: The Art of Rest
31 Days of Stability, Day 20: Stability and the Hospitality Dream
31 Days of Stability, Day 21: Stability in the Midst of Pain
31 Days of Stability, Day 22: Simply Today
31 Days of Stability, Day 23: Believing In Enough
31 Days of Stability, Day 24: Stability On A Friday?
31 Days of Stability, Day 25: Stability Confessions
31 Days of Stability, Day 26: Dare To Be... Alike?
31 Days of Stability, Day 27: Stability Central
31 Days of Stability, Day 28: Empathy, and the "Choose Yourself" Trend
31 Days of Stability, Day 29: MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! Ahem. I will now compose myself and share the link with you. One Day For Looking Back
31 Days of Stability, Day 30: The Power of Small Deeds